THE SLEEPING GIANT

I have so many free time in home. After I do my “job” in home in every morning, I really have nothing to do. Usually, I watched television, chatted with some friends, studied about nursing material, make an essay and many others. Then the night comes, So, I sleep and wake up the next morning and do the same thing again. That routinity happens every day since the first day I came. Hmm.. I can’t say that what I did is bad. I mean, I helped my mommy, I learned how to cook right, I studied… but I don’t have the specific target, what I want to be. That’s so important to measure my ability. Otherwise, I wasted my time every single day.

I should make some targets everyday and do the fix schedule. For example, I should know about one recipes each day. I should read the nursing journal, I should make an essay, I should read one page of nursing book. So each day would not be gone so fast like this. Everyday has its own value. One month in home without any pressure, making me so lazy to do great things. I can’t live like this anymore for sure. This is really comfort zone for me. And we know comfort zone is a nice place to stay, but you never grow up. I did not say that my home is a place that I can’t grow up well. But the problem is coming from myself. I used to live in Semarang with a hundreds of duty, targets, and every thing. Also, I managed my daily life such us buy my needs and food, paid my boarding house’s fee and many other. But now everything is different.

Home is a place that everything already managed well. You don’t need to worry about anything else. Hmm, the other reason might be about my changing status. Before, I was a college student, i have a dream to study abroad, that pushed myself so hard to get it, to catch it. So I felt so alive. But know, I turn my first step around. I want to work, so I myself think that I don’t need to learning TOEFL so hard, right? So I just like lost my interest, so I used my time to play more than to study. But now, I realized that I was wrong.

I will promise to my own self that I will make myself better. I will burn my spirit up. Work is not blocking my way to study, but It just the first step for me. So don’t worry to myself. As long as you have so hard action, pray and willingness, everything you want, it will come with its way. Just be the best version of your life.

If you keep living like this, nothing changes. Everything will be the same each day. You will be a just so-so girl that like the mostly other girls. So, you have to find your differences than other. If you don’t find it, just make it anyway with your own way. There are so many ways to go to Roma, so please choose the one that you like. I will tell it again that if you want to something bigger you must try harder.